The Vertex of Violet

(Important) Attention, for all those who have been following me:

I haven’t posted in a really long time, because I feared returning to this tumblr as it is extremely painful to read and follow up now.

Jeffrey and I have broken up, about 6 months ago. It was absolutely awful. It still is. All I can really say is that, as promised, his mother can be the blame for the demise of our relationship and engagement. I won’t blame all of it on her, because Jeffrey very simply turned on me and the committment we made. I pray to God to this day that He will reveal Himself to both Jeffrey and I in a way that will make this situation a better one, somehow. Nonetheless, it ended very abruptly and very harshly.

However, I’ve picked myself up since then, have gotten a new job and a new 1997 Honda Accord. (And YES, it is a PURPLE car of course, so here is some pictures of my beloved vehicle of dark purple goodness):

As well as the inside (entirely purple zebra, from the front seats, back seats, floor mats, seat belt pads and steering wheel):

I’m sure you can imagine where my wedding money went to…

So, I’ve avoided my tumblr as long as I can; this is where I started with all the wedding planning and all that…. so I am sure you all know it was hard to come back. But, alas! Here I am to bring good news.

I am back again. However, not on here any longer (this particular tumblr). I will keep this tumblr up, but I would like if all of you guys follow my new tumblr: http://tehperpleone.tumblr.com/

Please do so! Thank you.

The Good and the Bad: a blog of venting…

So the weeks go by and then suddenly, it’s December. How does that happen?? I don’t know if it is a good or bad, however, to make reading this more tolerable here’s the good:

The adorable kitten that was mentioned earlier in my blog is now residing permanently under my (or in the current circumstances, Jeffrey’s) roof:

Yes, Sassy is ours now. We’re happy to welcome her into a currently restless lives. She’s a bundle of cute and clumsy in one hyperactively black, fury ball. She enjoys being extremely vocal, jumping in fridges and even playing in water (oooh, how controversial in the cat-world).

I’m glad, despite the unnecesary driving and unfortunate encounter with a friend (will explain later) that we have her. I could not get her out of my mind since I first met her; she’s the perfect cat: friendly, outgoing, cuddly, slow to anger (still have not found what makes her angry and bite, and we have purposely tested that by pplayfully pulling her tail and limbs; and all she does is purr, how sweet!) And, best of all Jeffrey loves her too which is a major plus, because he can be a real stiff when it comes to animals.

In retrospect, she is a blessing. She has made me laugh when I could have been crying, and made me smile when I could have been frowning… I have company when I am alone and when there is no one there to comfort and assure me positively from that which brings me down. In that sense, I do feel better. She’s sprawled out on me now as I type ^_^

However, to elaborate, because as the title says there is unfortunately bad things; it has been rough for both Jeffrey and I. We’ve been awaiting the opportunity of the year for Jeffrey to be called by the Volkswagen plant of Chattanooga. This job offers almost $15 an hour and no third shifts or weekends. Oh, how I want this to happen. Jeffrey’s current job is a sucky full-time for $9 wage, overnight, 12-hour shift job that just might be the death of him… or, at least mentally. It hasn’t been easy for either of us and I hate to see the dread on him as he is about to leave for work. I feel bad because it often causes dissention between us both when I beg him not to quit yet. We’re already burning out and we haven’t even lit that “candle” yet (AKA got married). This fact puts me ill at ease constantly. My stress levels have hit the roof and are probably somewhere in a galaxy unknown to man.

I really got my hopes up for the VW job, but we haven’t heard from them for weeks. The safest bet is that he probably won’t get it… it’s just too good to be true. It’s disappointing though, because he applied for this Volkswagen job a whole year ago, yet out-of-the-blue they call and schedule him an assessment test and have not heard back from them since!!

In the meantime, I’m having a hard time at Target and so, so close to quitting. Besides the fact that I despise my job, it doesn’t help that my bosses and co-workers make it 100% more worse. In other words, I desperately envy the people who may hate their jobs, but at least have people they enjoy working with. A crappy job is just another crappy job, but if you have people to laugh it off with makes a world a difference. It just seems that everything is kind of caving down on Jeffrey and I.

Well, what about the wedding? Huh, funny you ask… has that ever been an easier question to answer? Needless to say, very, very few people have been making this an aspiration worth keeping at this point.

I realize how the relationship Jeffrey and I have brings both positive aspects and even negative. In the negative aspect, we both feel ever since dating, we have been marooned onto this island in which all friends and family isolate themselves from us in odd, detached ways. Within the wedding planning, this fact has made me most disconsolate. Even the happiness of being married with the man of my life, he is unable to fill this sort of void that has evolved within me. It makes me furious at the same time that these people cannot even express any sort of excitement or happiness that I am no longer hopelessly searching for “the one” anymore, or even make this day which I unrelentingly plan the slightest bit joyful. It seems as of late the only response I can get out of anyone is if I mention who is going to be a bridesmaid or groomsmen; it’s selfish, what makes them assume they even deserve to be part of my wedding if they aren’t going to scarcely attempt to be part of my life and my relationship?

There are some people who of course made things like this “island” that Jeffrey and I are on less desolate: our friends Andy and Lana, and our friend Chris. They have been on board with us with everything so far, and vice versa. We have been very lucky that they have been most gracious and apathetic; two qualities scarcely seen out of the dozens of “friends” and family, which is truly disheartening. It is so hard to do this alone, yet so hard to ask of others to make things less so. Despite the tone of this primarily lamentful blog, Jeffrey and I want to thank these people; they have no idea how much just the simple acts of just being there for us has done. We hope we can find a more official and appropriate way of doing so.

In the meantime, I’m having a hard time deciding whether I should confront the people that have deeply hurt both Jeffrey and I. Those people just so happened to be our “best” friends. I can’t decide if I should deal with their negligence in a graceful way or be up in arms and just unload on them. I’ve already mentioned the reply of my best friend earlier in my blogs about the wedding, and now Jeffrey has to deal with the same backlash from his best friend as well. I won’t go into detail because it may sound like I’m gossiping, but pretty much it was stated that, he didn’t agree with what we were doing… so, whatever. You don’t agree then go on your way. Honestly, anyone who gives me or Jeffrey this kind of treatment is not worth being part of our lives. I guess in trial, people’s “true colors” are revealed.

Just after everything happened with Jeffrey’s family, the recovery and healing is still in the process… it’s like a wound that is still open and truly does not need to be tested. But, oh, how people have tested it. Have they poked, prodded, jabbed and stabbed at it.

Not nice, not nice…

I have to try and be more postive, since it can be worse. I have to stop, how would you call it, “bitching”, but I do not express these feelings to anyone else but Jeffrey… like the title, it’s a blog of venting. So, if you have some “bitching” to do about this blog, there’s an ap for that so join the party, I’m sure they’re still accepting members ;-)

Aaaah… I need to go to bed.

Nyquil.

I hope you feel better!! *hugs*

irkenalchemist asked: Were we separated at birth, or what?

Honestly, I think we were. I’ll start calling you my sister. Maybe our brains were at one time attached and the doctors had to do some crazy voodoo operation to separate us, that’s why we do the same things.

TBM concert in ATL 11.05.2010

It was fun! And cold. Jeffrey and I got there several hours early and waited in the 30 degree weather (it even began to snow for a little while). The weather conditions were actually completely opposite to our last concert for TBM, as we waited in 120 degree temperatures… Oh, the things we will do for The Birthday Massacre.

To specify, it was a co-headliner for TBM and Black Veil Brides. Andy, Lana, Jeffrey and I all agreed the Black Veil Brides who douchebags from the beginning, after a couple of fan girls who tried to get the lead singer’s attention were completely glared at and turned down. That’s no way to treat your fans. I don’t see Black Veil Brides going far. Throughout their lineup, the lead singer continueously and furiously shouted things like, “If you don’t like us, then suck our dicks” and saying bull like that. Pretty much they were complete faggots, spitting water at people and throwing their water bottles (and also full beer bottles), crowd surfing, ect. We didn’t bother including any of the footage with them in it.

Here’s a picture if you really wanted to see them- and yes, those are ALL males, don’t let your eyes fool you ;-)

Aside from that, I got to meet up with Chibi prior to the show and we got to chat for a bit, as well as Rhim too. Again, they were just so nice and friendly, such a change from the Black Veil Brides. During the show I sung along with Owen and he took my hand and had me play part of Happy Birthday on his purple keytar:

(A kid got a video of it. You can hardly see me, though you can see Lana pretty well! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N3RnQf0YM0E )

Unfortunately, I never got good pictures of my attire, the below are all I was able to capture in spite of the freezing conditions:

My skirt and purple skinny jeans (boy, was I lucky I decided to wear both!)

The costume corset I wore as an underbust:

And, lastly, just me:

Alright, so the concert itself. Our friends whom we went with in the last concert recorded this one; it is decent quality! Actually, Andy does a whole series of “vlogs” on youtube. Please watch the concert video here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jPklJBm4jag&feature=youtu.be&a

Here are the snapshots:

Owen:

Chibi and gang:

Chibi looking creepily cute:

LAWL at Owen:

M. Falcore:

Rainbow!

Chibi making a face:

Owen rocking out:

And, here is some Dommin, who played after the first band Aural Vampire:

And lastly, Aural Vampire!!:

RAVEMAN!:

Exo-Chika is very flexible:

She was so cute!

Cool right??

Again, to see Andy’s video with some great concert footage, click this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jPklJBm4jag&feature=youtu.be&a

‘Til next time!

- Violet

… And the results are in!

Yup, I never made the “how-to” video, so I decided to do a picture timeline instead.

SO, when I mentioned how awful my hair was, you’ll believe me when I display this: The “Before Shot”

Yeah, I know. Embarrassing right? How awful that I even went out less purple than I could be! (But you must like my pretty purple satin pjs! That’s one cheery thing about those shots…)

Well, here’s my set-up, from the dyes I previously posted, the bleaching, and the conditioners:

The whole process was about 30-45 minutes, to get my hair an orange blonde. I lightened it up to a light blonde with this gentle lightener, which took me maybe a level or two up (I didn’t leave it on the full 30 or so minutes):

And after this application, I go for a tedious amount of conditioning. I let the conditioner sit on my hair a good 3-5 minutes, with one of the conditioners I use is a sealer, another a protein-filler, Aussie’s wonderful “Miracle” conditioner, and so on.

 Finally, after drying the hair and showing the embarrassingly blonde/light pink results, (which, I will not post post because I could not bear the sight of it!!) I apply my dyes. Starting with and mixing Virgin Snow, Pravana, and the others in separate places and over each other in a whirlwind of purplitude! 

The dye I let sit for 2 1/2 hours and then…. voilà! Or in my case, violà!! Thus, here is the very much anticipated ”After” shots:

And, finally:

I’m very happy about it. Turned mostly how I wanted it! Of course, Pravana is extremely strong and in some lights and photographs it still appears blueish, but it is a lot more dimentional. I’ll keep it ;-)

So, with that… since this is like a journal, I’ll go to say things concurrent with my life. I guess a few things have been both frustrating and good for the time being. The most frustrating thing of the week: my ring… yeah, well, Kay screwed up again. As I was getting it resized, upon getting it back we saw they never replated the rhodium… it was yellow and tarnished. In spite having it back, I just couldn’t wear it… so, I sent it back… It’s very disappointing when people who are supposed to care for someone’s most precious possession treat it less than that.

 Jeffrey and I went back down to GA to visit family and friends. As usual, driving stresses me out and trying to get every one into my schedule of visiting is oftentimes extremely unnerving, especially if they are difficult about it. Needless to say, Jeffrey and I agreed that this Friday when we go back to ATL for our concert, surely will be one of the last times we go down there… it’s really unfortunate, but it was supposed to be our “vacation” and we ended up getting frazzled with each other and a select few difficult persons.

HOWEVER, there was one thing that got my mood up:

Her name is Sassy. Our friend is currently looking for someone to take her home, and Jeffrey and I are hoping to be the ones to take her, even though we live fairly far away… I hope so, though! She kinda chose Jeffrey and I…

I have to keep my head up… and the next concert adventure begins!! What am I going to wear, I wonder??

Maybe my fun corset-ribboned skirt… the only thing that it is unfortunate that I got two sizes to big and looks a lot more fluffy and big on me than this model:

Maybe the corset to this costume, and yes I bought this whole costume JUST for that… X-D:

Or maybe… My purple pinstripe halter corset:

Mah skinnies!

I WOULD wear this, but seeing that it is being shipped from the UK, I don’t think I’ll get it in time because I would SO wear it, and I don’t care how cold I’ll be. It’s gorgeous!!

And yes, I do so own all of these EXCEPT the dress above… that will change soon though, you can count on it ;-)

SO, that’s all I have for now…

Next update shall surely include that of concert fun!

Random stuff including hair and more (yes, more) concert stuff

So, these last few months are surprisingly and speedily slipping through my grasp, and I’ve found myself on numerous occasions completely loosing track and having lack thereof any concept of time. In other words, I feel like I’m in a neutral fog, just kind of finishing (not really) each days’ tasks. Had I still been planning a wedding in December I think I would find myself in pits of raging stress and hellish anxiety. I guess that’s one plus to having the date pushed back. I mean, I’m not in school and with that my plate is STILL full.

Since I’m pointlessly rambling, I’ll go to state that my purple hair just started to sadly fade, though not fast enough or I would have redyed it by now. I’m in limbo because, wow, my hair has kept amazingly! I dyed it before the last Birthday Massacre concert, which is a couple days short of three months ago. However, I was hoping I can fade it to a pale purple/pink so I would not have to bleach. Right now it’s an awkward faded, dull purple with violet streaks and splots of pink, with my darkish brown roots are severely rearing at the top. Alas, it’s looking like I need to take a trip to Sally’s and buy 20 volume of bleach and creme developer. Sad times.

The reason I know why the color has not faded quite that bit (and will it ever? Shampooing it doesn’t even fade it! This purple is tough!) is because I use multiple purple dyes, so I will list a bunch of my dyes in the next line-up. Besides the fact that I’m kind of my own cosmotologist (in training), I don’t suggest trying this yourself; you need to know how much to use, depending on the different chemicals of each dye and brand, as well as it takes a LOT of practice, and a lot of help from your fiance :-D

Thus, my favorite, for it’s long lasting vitality and deeeeep violet tones, (professional) Pravana Chromasilk Vivids Violet. You need to be licensed to get this dye, and it is a secret to how I am able to get it! ;-p:

Splat’s very bright “Lusty Lavender”

(By the way, google search Splat Lusty Lavender and you will find me on the first page!! Here’s the picture you will find):

…. Anyway, back to the extensive dye list:

Special Effects “Virgin Rose”, a very bright and vibrant purpley pink:

La Riche Directions Plum:

And lastly, RAW Purple Punch:

With these together, I’d expect a pretty NEON purple depending on how I apply each color. Luckily, these are all vegetable-based dyes and do not harm hair, and since I’ve used all of these I know the extent of purple and blue hue each brands contain and apply accordingly. Therefore, since I am going for a less “blue” purple, my base before I layer each purple will be Virgin Rose. Results soon!

SO how do I achieve this, you ask? Fortunately, I made my trip yesterday and found “Ion” as an acceptable way to lift this ugly dull purple/pink/brown from my hair. Yes, and Ion is purple. Who would’ve guessed… NOT the (only) reason I got it. Both the developer and bleach claim to have wheat germ proteins, gardinia and coconut oils and whatnot… some things that are meant to be good for hair. Here are the items I’m going to use for the next hair adventure!

The developer and bleach with with, of course, more purple items:

I’m going to do a “How-to” video sometime, showing the results.

All these chemical processes sound scary and I’m pretty sure you’re worried your locks will be fried. For one, I’m not an advocate of bleaching every time you dye, but in case you do I’ll also give some credit to Aussie’s 3-Minute Miracle. It’s not like VA-VOOM, AmazingHair appears! But it’s pretty good, and made my hair really soft! (And, it’s purple too!!)

If you want shiny hair… well, I’ve tried A LOT of different brands and products for shine, because my hair is naturally not very shiny no matter its health. I’ve found some progress with Catwalk “Your Highness Volume Shine Spray”. The rest of the line is good too. I’m honestly thinking, the purple products are the only ones that work for me! (I’ve tried Biosilk, It’s a 10 Miracle Shine Spray, Proclaim serums and others… none of them tend to deliver as much shine, for me at least)

My shiny hair!

Also. Here’s some more exciting news in the dye world. Splat, one of the brands I often use has a new cool line of hair fun:

I got right in front of me the “Violet Rays” glow-in-the-dark color. (Knowing me, immediately after finding out, I ran to my local Walgreen to purchase this!) Unfortunately, it is not necessarily a dye but a very slick gel substance. Nevertheless, I will be the GLOWING Purple Girl at all my concerts. How awesome is that??

Speaking of concerts, and I know what you must be thinking (“The Birthday Massacre AGAIN? God, that and purple is all this girl talks about”)… haha, not necessarily true BUT, well, let me just show you:

Yes. Jeffrey and I, along with Andy and Lana will be going for round 3 TBM concertness!! Last time we drove 7 hours to see them (for now, I don’t know why… probably to see them and do the whole “road trip” thing, which was cool) but now they’re coming to our turf. And we all say, “Why not??”

We’re really excited not just for The Birthday Massacre (which in of itself, is very exciting) but for Dommin and Aural Vampire. Dommin toured with TBM in the first concert we saw them, and they were pretty good (Jeffrey’s more excited for Dommin than I). I’m anxious to see Aural Vampire. They’re a Japanese techno group. Here’s a picture of them, Exo Chika looks so cute ^_^:

Speaking of the Japanese. I’ve gotten in and finished the Fruits Basket series and I must say it was ADORABLE! It’s an anime about a family that is cursed through the Zodiac, and turn to one of the animals when under a large amount of stress or touched by the opposite sex. I root for Kyo and Tohro!

Another show I’ve shown interest in (however definitely not as cute, but equally as good) is Ghost Hound. What immediately attracted me to this series was the creepy and grippling storyline and groundbreaking animation. Even people who don’t like anime will agree that it is well made. Overview: the story begins with a boy who revisits a horrifying incident in his past through a dream, and as you watch you find out this happens frequently. This dream is an incident he experienced with his sister, when they were kidnapped and set for ransom. The sister dies and this is the image which continually haunts him. The story also focuses on 2 other boys who somehow are involved in this mystery. I haven’t gotten very far into the series, but I’m pretty sure I’ll finish it. Here’s a picture:

Yep.

This is quite a lot for one blog, eh?

Oh well.

‘Til next time!

-Violet

Update and Rant

And dress.

Which I now have in my possession. However, it is not the dress of which I previously posted.

Here it is:

It is much different, much more purple. And much more available than the other… as in it is hanging beautifully in my closet.

And, OF COURSE it will undergo many changes. I am sewing swarovski stone beads in the ruffles of the dress and adding a long, and thick white sash with purple floral embroidery, and a matching purple rose brooch to tie the sash together at hip level. Currently, while I have found my rose brooch, beads and while it is easy to find white satin fabric, the purple embroidery is quite the challenge. I want something like this, but in purple that matches my dress, though I have yet to find it:

And of course. How can I forget the wedding band. It is gorgeous! The only issue is that Kay’s had such a hard time finding Iolite (an extremely rare purple-violet stone), they never got to resizing my engagement ring, which really sucks… so we will have to make a second trip down there to do that.

Here is a picture of my rings together:

It’s as perfect as my engagement ring. It has the alternating Iolite and Amethyst, the stone’s colors getting softer the more it goes out. The last iolite stones are a pretty Periwinkle purple, and the Amethyst are a lilac color. The chromatics  in this photograph appear a lot bluer than they really are (of course).

The Birthday Massace Pins and Needles album is amazing. When we celebrated I opted for a very appropriately themed shirt to go with the band and their album:

You can’t tell much from the picture, but it’s TBM rabbit logo:

So here’s me rocking out (and yes, that is my wedding dress in the corner):

Here is Jeffrey and I being complete dorks, trying to show off our merch (failing epically to take a steady photograph… I mean, what in the world happened to me face? I warped into ET):

Yes… so things have settled since then, and we’re trying to set in motion our wedding.

Let me warn you this is one of the times thus far that I have seriously utilized this blogging site for venting purposes. As the tone of these words contrast the previous tones I’ve had, please be aware that I am admitting to frustrations:

We had a talk with Jeffrey’s mother this Saturday. Needless to say, I still feel like not everything has been solved. To elaborate, when we got engaged, Jeffrey’s mother roared with objection and in need to take control any way she could, threatened to sue our marriage councelor and even attempted to take away Jeffrey’s vehicle and CIVIL RIGHTS AS AN ADULT. Yes, she went- and I don’t use words like this unless I mean it- apeshit. Complete haywire. Jeffrey’s step-brother and sisters were right behind her to make sure they got their snide, condescending words in as well.

Biggest complaint?

I have purple hair and that I only wear purple. Yes. That has been the ONLY thing they could muster as an objection to the ENTIRE relationship and future marriage.

To refrain from my current skepticism, the talk went smoothly with Jeffrey’s mom in all respects. However, personally I am struggling with how close-minded Jeffrey’s family is about everything. His mom is still attempting to force him to work part-time. She has no idea that Jeffrey has been doing school the last two semester’s as a full-time student and employee, and he has been fine. If he admitted to that, like I’ve said previously WWIII would be in motion pioneered by the stubborn and die-hard divorce lawyer, alongside her minions AKA Jeffrey’s half-sibblings as the co-forerunners.

My biggest lament about everything is that this is MY WEDDING. I am so entirely done with the supposed closest people to me not making this a day that is supposed to be the “happiest”, even the slightest bit. It is constant disappointment, especially after trying and trying and trying, working fulltime saving every penny, researching every possible insurance company scouring everything down to the T, and all people can say “Take one step at a time, you will know when you guys will be ready before marriage” WE ARE. WE ARE READY! The only people who are not ready is YOU!

The option of even having an actual wedding is becoming almost insignificant. At this point I’m saying, “You know what? Forget it. I’m eloping and I’ll share the joy with the person who matters the most”. The only people who have been there for us are those who have actually spent time with Jeffrey and I, and physically witnessed the toll of responsibility both Jeffrey and I have put upon ourselves to even make this relatively possible. I mean, my best friend from another state tells me, “I’m not even sure I can make it. I have exams that week”. What? Isn’t the more “best friend” response like, “I have exams that week, but I will make sure to take the tests before or after I make it to the BEST DAY OF YOUR LIFE”.

Yeah. I have cried and cried over this on too many occasions. I never intended for Jeffrey and I to be marrooned to another island by anyone who claims to support us or be our “allies” (Jeffrey’s mom thinks she’s one, and I seriously smirked to myself knowing how much BULL is written on every single letter of that word when it was spoken through her lips).

We have 7 more months before the actual wedding, that is if there is going to be one. My only wish is that I can become excited and hopeful for this day, and to plan and create without having the slightest bit of doubt that I’m just dreaming. That it’s make-believe and it’s really just going to all blow over, and Jeffrey and I really are just going to end up in the homely Cleveland courthouse and just sign a bunch of documents. And forever, people will ALWAYS call me a girlfriend, never the fiance or hell, a wife. People will just continue believing we’re “shackin” and we’re immature, lovestruck college students with a vision that is unreachable in this economy. Horray! Wow, doesn’t that just sound like a fairy tale. It’s every girl’s dream.

Not.

I will tentatively say this, because I want peace just as much as anyone in a similar predicament. I will aim to please best I can, as always, but I am not going to sacrifice this. Again. I have been working too long and hard. I’m going to just say, “If you don’t like it, check facebook later for the pictures. So sorry you missed it”.

Well, hi der…

It has been a long time since I last posted. Let’s see… oh yes, the Birthday Masacre concert was

A W E S O M E ! !

Yes, so here is the whole story in a nutshell: our friends Andy and Lana-

Came from GA to hang out a day before we hit the road to AK. It was really nice seeing we had a lot in common. Honestly Jeffrey and I are complete hermit crabs so this was a very incredible experience to spend time with some like-minded people. Speaking of having something in common, there could not be said about that enough, especially between Lana and I like:

Similar rings. Lana’s is a pretty Tanzanite with a beautiful purple-periwinkle shade with pretty embroidery in the white gold. And we have the same-

Computers and like-colored mice/mouses? (What is the plural for a computer mouse??), and much more in common (we even got weirded out by how much!!)

Anyway. Before we left, we ended up in a Walgreens, and there being sold were these adorable TY “Baby Boos”. One was a monkey with purple eyes, ears and toesies and I thought: “The lead singer of TBM loves her monkey Gangle, he must have a friend!”

(I ended up giving it to her at the concert, as we were up front, and I think Chibi lubbed him ^_^). Here he is:

Oh, let us not forget my wardrobe for the concert:

Miss Purple posing with Chibi’s monkey, (his real name is Coconut, but Chibi and I decided on Taco instead).

SO, the actual (awesome) concert was awesome. Haha… some good bands like The Agonist an Otep were really great live. But we were there for The Birthday Massacre. We got to hear new songs from their newest album (MUST HAZ!): Pins and Needles:

(What a gorgeous album ^-^)

Here are some snap shots before I wrap up. Oh and by the way, I didn’t note or photograph the other bands planning because one: they were either faggots or hot-shot imbeciles who encouraged moshing and pissed us off (mostly Andy and Jeffrey, who were trying to protect their women!!), or they just didn’t make the show like Otep (who unfortunately we did not get any pictures of), The Agonist, and especially TBM. So, without further adue, here are they pictures:

(The Agonist lead singer, Alissa- a kickass hardcore singer who also has a beautiful melodic and angelic voice which perfectly contrasts her raging and growling screams).

And, drumroll pleaz…

CHIBI!

RHIM!

RAINBOW! The quality of his one is worst than the others… sowwie :-(

CHIBI AGAIN! As we can tell we were really close.

The end of the concert was great. Jeffrey and I purchased their Nothing and Nowhere Album (their first album, which was the only one besides Pins and Needles we did not have):

And some other random items that we could afford.

AND, let us not forget that all four of us were able to meet the band. They were so nice, respectful and warm. Chibi is as cute as she looks (I was amused that she had this little mini water gun and shot at random people and some of the band members as well). Rainbow was such an incredibly friendly guy, Owen was very cool and friendly as well. It was great!

We are definitely seeing them again (they mentioned November: I’m holding them up to it! *points purple water gun*).

In the meantime, a lot has gone by… and not very much, either, if that makes any sense. Due to some rather financial tiffs with the family proceeding classes at Lee for now have been pushed for Spring 2011. In other words I’m not doing school this semester (so you’d think I’d have like 50 more entires, right? WRONG!), since I am working so much and trying to keep my sanity by spending any extra time with Jeffrey is such a staple in my life right now. Otherwise, I think I would be drawing and writing a lot more… sadly, I have had the writer’s/artist’s block of the CENTURY. I’m ebbing through that ever so little… doodling (on lined paper, might I embarrassingly add) every once in a full moon. Maybe adding a sentence or two to a story whose plot I still haven’t come up with… let’s face it, my inspiration is a desert of nothingness, void of any sign of creation. Sounds depressing, and honestly it depresses me a lot too… *starts sobbing*

Speaking of being down in the dumps, unfortunately, Jeffrey and I have decided a summer wedding is in our and the familie’s best interest. Otherwise WWIII would errupt had we planned for December instead… long story. I am bummed that I will have to wait longer, just because here in our life we believe we’re ready mentally, spiritually, ect… it is a shame that we have to wait for the acceptance of other’s. I think most people would be like, “Screw this: we’re gettin’ married and dere’s nottin’ you can do ‘bout it!” (I have no idea why I added the weird accent). But, that’s not us…

Nevertheless, Jeffrey and I decided to purchase our rings anyway. It is adding at least the promise of our future and persuading us to dread the wait a little less.

Jeffrey’s ring:

Mine is of course going to be a little more complicated. Like everything else I get my hands on pretty much (i.e, my dress which is a couple paragraphs down)

Here is the foundation/starting point:

And the pattern is going to be like my engagement ring:

The center stone of the ring will be Amethyst, and the stones besides it will be Iolite and it will alternate from there on both sides, ending stones will be Amethyst. That’s 5 Amethyst, 4 Iolite stones on that channel set enhancer ring. I am so excited! I can’t wait until we get it back from the shop (September 14th, THE SAME DAY AS PINS AND NEEDLES! eeek!!)

I was originally going to go with just a channel-set band, but unfortunately it won’t work out because of the protuberance of the Amethyst on my engagement ring, as you can tell in the photo.

PICTURES OF THE REAL RINGS SOON! STAY TUNED!

I almost piss myself over how excited I get over the rings. Honestly. And my dress, too! Before I show the picture, let me elaborate the changes that the dress will undergo: I am going to take out the bottom half and turn it mermaid style with a train. Originally, my mom and I were just going to completely make my dress from scratch (from my design which I will post later), but when I saw this dress I reconsidered. The top is perfect. The bottom will be altered.

(Drumroooolllll:)

TA-DA!! It’s gorgeous, no?

Yup. It looks bluer than it should be… I will have to order this very soon!

Well… that’s it for now. I will have to update next time on exciting girly things like my purle hair dyes, dresses, rings… and things…. yes…

-Violet